8:40am. I am having my green tea right now. So far I have weighed myself 160.4. Done my morning meditation and my lower body workout. I am feeling great and grateful for this new day. I am blessed.
940pm super tired. Worked out twice. Went for a walk and a bike ride. It was a good day. I’m very tired tonight. Goodnight!
10am. Got my son off to school rode my bike down the road with him part of the way to his school then came back up the bike path. Took the dog for a walk. Meditated and now just did my full body dumbbell work out. Weight 160.8 this am. Everything is going along with fairly few bumps in the road. Life is uncontrollable. I am strong and I am never giving up. I am getting stronger every single day. No one is going to distract me from what I’m working on. If someone wants to stand in my way they better move!! I am not WEAK. Ok… Gotta plan my first meal and make sure the kitchen is in order. Peace! I’ll be back!
8:50 pm. Just finished doing the 45 minute standing abs & low impact cardio workout from Hasfit on YouTube. It was great I needed it. I also went for a bike ride this evening up the hill and back. It was fun. The video just shows a small part of my ride that is usually a lot longer but I wanted to share what my rides are like. I’ve eaten a lot today. Not very well. But I got all the groceries to make the healthy stuff on the Kickoff menu. No idea if I’ll like it or not but I’ll give it a shot! Tomorrow I’ll be doing a bunch of meal preping I think! Anyways today was a good day. I’m looking forward to being stronger tomorrow! Oh yeah… My son sent me this picture of me 2 years ago.
Hard to believe that was me 2 years ago. Yet somehow I still feel the same…. Well I am the same person… Just not that big anymore. Crazy how people can change and still stay the same.
6:50am Good morning. Ive been up awhile now. I’ve taken Lyric (my dog) for a walk. I’ve weighed myself and I’m not surprised to see the scale is up. I ate too much sweet potato pie yesterday. Today I’m giving the rest of that pie to the chickens because my boys wouldn’t touch it. So its going to the chickens today. I’m sitting in the living room now watching a motivational video on YouTube drinking some green tea. I’ve been out in the yard fed the chickens and collected their eggs and gave them fresh water.
9pm time for bed eyes are burning will write tomorrow. Goodnight!
6:00am. I’ve been up for about an hour now. I woke up early to pee and was hit with a horrible memory which got my mind going and I couldn’t go back to sleep. I weighed myself. I am 159 this am. And I’m feeling compelled to go to church. My friend invited me yesterday and I don’t know but I think I can benifit from recieving the sacrament. Its been a long time. I don’t know if that memory I remembered was put there to lead me to this or not. But it certainly will not hurt me to go. Its going to be at my friends house. So its not going to be a large gathering of many people. I still need to meditate. The sun has yet to even come up. Dang early mornings! Life is good and it’s a blessing. Even though that memory I had this morning was terrible I’m thankful that I had it because it is helping me to remember what I want to do…
9:50pm. I’m finally headed to bed. Just outta the shower. Today was good. I didn’t eat till after 12 but I didnt do so well on stopping eating…. Nor did I do so well on what I ate. I went for a mile walk this evening and I rode my bike for 5. I’m very tired and hope to sleep ALL night long. Good night.
7:10 am good morning. I am awake now about an hour. Still have to meditate. Today I weighed 159.4 up down up down. Ugh. Well I got a mini trampoline or fitness trampoline yesterday. I’m excited to give it a try today. Brand new day! Yay!
9:40pm I’m in bed now going to sleep. Just placed a grocery order with Walmart and another order with Amazon for stuff Walmart doesn’t have. Today was good rode my bike this evening. Goodnight!
7:50am. Good morning! I am awake been awake for a little bit. Getting my feet off on the right note. Have not left my bedroom yet. I have weighed myself and meditated. My scale reads 161. I’m going to focus on being more mindful with my eating today. I will track absolutly everything and write it down. I am going to hold MYSELF accountable. I know the reason why I am stuck. I will not let that keep me stuck any longer. I am letting it go. Today is a brand new day. I am so thankful for brand new days.
Today I was distracted. I did a 5 min meditation with Fitbit then I did the other vipassana meditation on YouTube. The last photo in the collage is not during the meditation but after. I had to move the camera and fix the bed a bit so its staged but its how I ended up…..
Isn’t that a bit strange? That’s how I’ll eventually end up when it comes time for this body to cease living
May today bring me and everyone around me more awareness to living this life we have been blessed to have and share with each other.
9am from Mel Robbins advice I have named my self talking voice. I decided against giving it a human name. I decided to name it ‘Trailer Park’ so when I notice the negative self talking voice I’m going to say “Listen up Trailer Park! That’s not me so shut up and let me do me!”
10:30am weights workout done. It was hard. I had to adapt with my weights.
My BMR = 1412. X 1.9 (because I exercise daily often twice a day) to get my TDEE = 2682.8. This number is how many calories I should be consuming to maintain.
To lose it should be a deficit of 500. Why then does Fitbit say I’m over budget at 900 calories and I’m done eating for the day? This I must go find out! Cause something isn’t right.
5:50am. I slept 7.5 hours my scale reads 160.4 again. My body seems to like this weight. But I don’t. Haha! Just bought 15 pound dumbbells to add to my collection. Going to do my meditation in a few moments or less. Today will be a lovely day I pray. I have to go to Walmart sometime today. That will be fun! I’m feeling good and ready for what my day brings. I am grateful for all the things I have learned and continue to learn every single day. Life is great! Live it to the fullest.
6:40pm. Today I have worked hard on my self. I rode my bike 10 miles then came in and showered and went to the store. When I got home I did weight training. Then had lunch. After that I did a 45 min Hasfit HIIT workout. I’m pretty spent tonight. I really just want to turn off my lights and call it a night. I will soon… I hope my body does some positive changes in the night. Not negative ones. I really wish my body would do something about all the extra.
I’m not sure why but I am feeling a little down. Oh well the day is over and all is well enough. I am ready to sleep good! Good night!!
7:15am. This morning has started off on a different foot than I’m used to. I woke up and my phone would not turn on. I felt very strange and almost lost. I struggled through my weigh in (159.4) and fitbit charging. My fitbit sent a clockface error and my weight wouldn’t sync. It felt almost as if I didn’t exist. But that’s ridiculous. I’ve lived without these things just fine I exist just fine without them.
I knew today would be the day I needed the meditation the most so I sat down to do it. My mind raced and body complained. I finally just played flat and turned the light by my bed off so it didn’t shine in my eyes pissing me off. That was about 1/2 way thru the 15 minute meditation. I did make it thru but felt like I needed longer. My mind kept wandering. I kept bringing it back to the breath each time. I sometimes wonder why everything is so hard for me. Why I make things harder for myself. Why can’t I do everything I want to do? Can I fix my broken self? I am working towards that. It IS possible. I have to believe in myself. I can not let myself down. Today I will focus more on gratitude towards everyone not just me. I will be more selfless. Less selfish. I need to be more grateful for every single part of life. Even especially the mishaps. They keep me on my toes and keep me young! 😉 I got this. We got this! Stay strong and stay in loving kindness!
11:40am workout done. Gonna have lunch soon. I think we’ll go to IHOP for an omelet. That sounds real good today.
7:30pm. Well I took my boys to IHOP today for breakfast/ lunch. It was my only meal and I didn’t eat it all at once. I got the Colorado omelet which is full of meat. Way too much. But I finished it after I came home and did a 40 minute Tabata cardio HIIT workout. (I didn’t die!)
Then when that was done I picked the goatheads out of my bike tires and went for a 4 mile ride. I’m just back from that now. I’ll be getting into the shower now I just wanted to cool down a minute and figured I’d go ahead and write here.
I’m looking forward to going to bed soon. Goodnight ❤
9:40am. Good morning! Ive already been up 4 hours. I got my son off to school and got busy. My mind was going a thousand miles a minute. I did day 5 vipassana meditation. Many feelings and thoughts today. It was not easy to sit still for 15 minutes but when I was done I just knew it was going to improve my day.
I wanted to hurry up and do my work out first but my brain kept finding things for me to do…. Had to go out and give the chickens fresh water and make sure they had food. Then I had to water my plants and feed the dogs then I had to do this and that and the other thing. Finally I said “OK I need to blow my nose but its going to wait!! Enough is enough!!” (I didnt have to blow it so bad snot was coming out I made it to the end of my work out just fine.) It was a hard workout but I survived just fine!
Oh yeah and my scale was 160.2. I did report to StikK.
Today is the day we get to see the ultrasound of my first grand baby. I am so unbelievably excited. I am just mad as hell she has to go into the doctor by herself though because of this corona virus. But everything will be fine!!
I worked out twice and went for a 6 mile bike ride this evening. I’m feeling younger more and more. I am loving this!!
8:45pm. Just out of the shower all clean and fresh ready to lay down and go to sleep. Today was good. My daughter went to the doctor and found out that she is 12 weeks pregnant. She knew already she was pregnant. She just didnt know how far along she was. Shes really struggling with morning sickness (all day long) though so that sucks. Tomorrow I will try not to be up at 5am. I’m going to sleep now….
6:15am. I am up now. Got my son off to school he is going to Seminary before school. He was a little anxious about it. I hope he does ok. I’m a little worried but he will be fine.
Scale reads 160.4 lbs. Same as yesterday. This is fine. Weight loss is slower towards the end of the journey. I know that. I also know my diet wasnt that great yesterday I ate foods with artificial sweeteners in them and I also know that they inhibit weight loss. So today is Monday. I’m going to start my day with meditation.
I was thinking yesterday I’ll probably stop writing here soon. I haven’t decided yet how soon.
My fitbit says I only slept about 5 hours. I thought I slept better than that… But I was up later waiting to go pick up my son from work. But he got a ride home so I didnt have to go get him. Any way Ive done my meditation. Did pretty well I think for me anyway. Now I’ll wlork out.
6:50pm. I’m full and sleepy. My eating window lasted from 1230 to 6pm today. I went outside today to work in the yard listening to a book and lost track of time. I came inside after noon and ate my lunch. Then went to my friends house to help her with her sewing machine. But I forgot my glasses and didn’t do a very good job at fixing it. But I had a nice visit with her anyway. Then I came home after 4 and didn’t get a good meal before that. So I waited for my son to finish playing a game then we went and grabbed dinner from Walmart. Cheap hot dogs and chili for dinner. I had one. It wasn’t bad but I’m full. Going to bed now. I’ll be getting up at 5 with the boy who will be going to school at 6am. Goodnight!
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